Its the way life goes i assume!

In my opinion we forget the main thing of our lives... Its ours, we shouldnt give anyone our all if so at least a portion reason being is because although you may think that person is your number one but really he is the last one... when you give a boy your all you come back short of yourself ask someone who knows which is me! They tell us that the perfect ending of life is to have a husband/wife and kids a nice big house and then your life is fulfilled why has that changed lately? you rarely see the ending like that anymore its more single parent households and trust they have given someone their all and now they have nothing... i have seen a woman come from having everything going to nothing its crazy how love is so blind... Say you fall in love with this boy that you think is so magnificent your friends say he is great for you then some say he isnt but you just care about you two. he tells you everything you want to hear " i love you baby", "you are so beautiful"," no other girls are like you"... and many more where that came from but the ultimate one is " i will never leave you". thats the one that kills alot they say they will be there forever and ever and never leave you... back on track so this boy is your dreams yeah you guys get into little fights but who doesnt right? its just normal little arguements... you go through his phone yeah he has a few texts from girls but they will never be you , he tells you once again he will never leave you you are his rock hahah.... (i just have to laugh cause this is so real) but then one day he doesnt pick up your phone calls and he doesnt call you all day so you begin to think maybe something is wrong with his phone because he couldnt be doing nothing else he loves me .... well the first thing in a relationship should always be trust if you dont have that you dont have anything oh you trust him alright but if he isnt answering your phone calls and not texting you back your mind does start to wonder what if this and what if this but you trust him so he couldnt be with no girl well sorry he is... who is faithful now and days? i have went across about a million of them and they say oh cheating is childish etc etc well obviously it isnt if you just can cheat on any girl oh they care about our feelings some dont but there are a select few... So he is with this girl and some girls are evil and they say " what ya girl have to do with me" trust its alot of them out there... (girls if a boy is in ah relationship leave him alone) anyways so he will most likely not even tell you unless its one of those truthful boys which will tell you the truth he want another girl which in a way is the perfect way of letting you go easily and there is nothing that we can do girls as much in our power we want them to be with us we cant hold on to something that doesnt want to be held on to!!! we cant have the whole cake and eat it too... Unfortuantely some girls have it the other way and can control their happiness but for the ones like me that have noe choice but to keep trucking it i believe the advice will be very useful.... As you can see i have written about it i have done something about it (exhale) and now i believe i can help others that have been through the samething i have i think i have been through it all if not i would hate to go through worst!!! but it took me so very long i broke up with this boy 2007 it is now 2009 and i finally can say its over and done with he has moved on and so have i although he has a girlfriend etc and im single we are still on the same page if not higher? but the moral of this post is to stop allowing boys to rule your happiness and if things arent going in your favor the person to turn to is god! seems as though he will have the better answer thats how i put it and see it... There is way more witht this comes from

4/13/2009 whats on my mind

Get ready for your blessing... Rip cousin james i just left new jersey sunday it was a very nice funeral havent been to one that was well put together like that one!!! but in greater news i have been having some great days and some are coming that are even better then now... i am finally focused on me ugh its been long enough and the only way i can keep it this way is if i stick my nose out of everything else so thats what ima do... but on my mind tonight is ring dance once again its approaching very quickly i have my dress now finally cant wait to reveal it its so pretty at least on me!!! hahah and hmm friends are on my mind jeeze they are all a pain in the butt, but oh well cant live without them as well as boys omg i never knew boys could become pest jeeze they bug me more then bugs outside and it is annoying leave me alone jeeze! its my life dont you forget hahah!! uhm but then again they arent all pest some bring joy not saying any names =)... but work ugh i have to tommorow i had a nice break from it and now i have to go in tommorow hopefully im working with ppl i care for so it will make it go quicker!!! Also i cant wait til this ring dance is over cause i am missing out on some serious shopping omg seems like all my dimes are going straight to that and i dont have any to spend to shop it is definably killing me... oh and omg this teen crime stuff omg i wish teens would grow up and understand that killing eachother dont make you cool at all what the heck like so many teens keep dying and its sad if its not car crashes its gun downs... get a hobbie and not killing people jeeze rip isiah and kadeem jeeze... also this sexting that the news is going crazy about girls come on if they cant wait to see it in person dont send it just imagine how a text gets to another person it goes through the company first imagine millions of ppl looking at your body im not saying im a saint but you learn from your actions in my opinion... and omg im scared for my life there has been 3 fires in my neighborhood within nine days im terrified to leave home without my valuable belongings ugh!!! but anywho other then all that i believe that is it for tonight peace and love nette