On my mind 4/2/2010

Whatever happened to the true love that we always wanted... Whatever happened to the happiness we endured? Why has love become so accepted to anyone why do we use it like its just another word that has no true meaning? I was reading all my older posts and thinking maybe i had the answer for this question and i did... Times are just not how they used to be... Why stress one girl when you can have so many others vice versa... So many fish in the sea that are yet to be seen... When i tell someone i love them it is a totally different meaning from what they probably think because i have studied love felt love believed love taken it and used it as my armor... It is so much to love then seen. Boys are gonna be boys and vice versa we just may never no how life will be until we actually live it for ourselves... Anyways other then that that's on my mind prom is coming idk whats up with my date really don't even care anymore its not even worth the time anymore... If i go by myself i would be just fine.. Just ready to get prom over and then graduate i feel like I'm overdue in this high school I'm dreading waking up in the morning dreading this work i just want to graduate and then go to college I'm ready for real challenges that will change my life.. I'm ready to feel that college life live on dorms not be under my mother all the time... But guess i have to still yet to wait, also spring break is coming up finally i am using that break to relax and feel at ease and delete some of this drama and stress that i have obtained over the months years and whatever... Ready to just change my number and start over maybe around college time its about time for another change... Also hmm what else is on my mind, my job is on my mind i love it but i think that after a certain amount of time at a job i think i get fed up with it because I'm so used to change that when I'm at or with someone for a certain time i cant take it anymore... Cheers to graduation!!! class of 2010!!! Oh and yes another thing that is on my mind is friends at the very beginning of me starting this blog i wrote about a few girls that were very specific in my life and the funny thing about it is I'm only cool with one girl out of all of them... I'm cool with one other but we don't associate as much and i want to keep it like that... Simone has and always will be behind me and same for me... Hmm what else idk my father is on my mind to he kinda bailed on me for this debutante and he said sorry but sorry can only cover the problem and not solve it but god forgives and forgets and so will i... Other then that that is really it that's on my mind I'm in computer program so bored listening to music on my phone... Peace love ... NETTE