Saying goodbye to SALEM is more like saying see you later

So this junior year of mines i started it off being a salem sundevil early in the year if anyone called me that i would get annoyed but i actually was starting to like it i still dont like salem but i was getting used that instead of fighting it why not just appreciate it. I'd have to say salem has had a big impact on me and i may not be the same not in a negative way but in a postive way. People used to tell me all the time its nothing but drama but in my opinion its just like a regular high school. That school has great spirit although theres no windows in like majority of the classrooms and the hallways are small and the lights are very dim i still kinda felt welcomed. I guess not knowing everyone was cool and people to me were friendly some! but salem brought the great person out of me and i was much happier with that person so i will continue to stay that person until i can be better then that person. Going back to landstown maybe another chapter in my life last time i was there i was a tottally different person and now i am a mature young lady and i have alot going for me now then i did then so i believe landstown may bring even better happiness although i wont be in there 4 blocks a day i will still feel the vibe i did back then but in a better way. I may not be cool with everyone in there but i at least know i will have my select few and thats all that matters going back not only cause im moving but because at heart im a eagle lol.... to be continued...

From the bottom of my heart "brain"

Did you know that your emotions of love comes from your brain and not your heart? I know some people thought i was stupid to not know myself but i was the one to tell alot that didnt know. So this whole time im thinking its my heart that is giving me problems when its really nerves in my head that are making me feel this way! They say that the certain nerves light up when we see that person that we have alot of love for... They also mention this little drug called dopamine....Something like cocaine, basically love gives us a high everyone is addicted to love... So i guess it makes sense all these times i try to get love out of my heart it never worked now i know the real location and maybe can work on it now even better how about you?

EX-hale

I was just sitting in my room one day thinking like why am i always confused about my love life? a question that arrives everyday basically if not with myself then my friends. I know you hear all the quotes and they say leave the past in the past etc etc.... well finally i took the initiative to listen to them. I always said i was over my past but was i really? if i could steady keep turning back very easily then something wasn't done. Out of all things my past has to be the worst at least to me. we all have done things we wish we didn't do but we learn to accept them which i have, But have we all learned to accept that our EX'S are called that for a reason? Xed out of our life basically is what we should refer them as. I out of all my friends have the most past that has bitten me back so hard but finally i have learned to take charge and say "NO". It hurt truly it hurt and i felt bad that i did it, i hurt them, (two wrongs don't make a right) but when they felt like i felt it made me feel strong to see someone fall before me and not me fall before them. Love ooh that tricky four letter word is so complicated. I hate to see people sad,mad, not satisfied ya know the usual and i had to think well me satisfying them isn't making me happy which it wasn't i was basically living for them and not myself. When they used that word we both abused the true meaning of it. So anyway back to X's... One day i proposed that me and my friends take a day and actually read all the stuff our X's have given to us from a t-shirt to a letter. I read all the things i had written when i was so called in love and wow it took me down memory lane but i thought to myself know wonder i cant get over the past is because I'm allowing it not only to store in my room but it was in my heart to and boy it was in a huge part of it. So being all said i know you all have seen " waiting to exhale" well that's what we called this little get together and i ended up ripping all the things that were told to me over the years by these X's and yes eyes did water and it did hurt but it felt good at the same time i put them in a pot took the pot in my backyard lighted a match and set those past memories on fire and ugh just to see all that stuff go in flames i felt evil but then i felt relieved like a burden was lifted off my shoulders and keep in mind i had stuff from 2005 don't ask why i kept it. Now that all that is gone i have room for my present and future and it felt great. You should try trust it will help. Although you do have to have the will and power to actually say NO and keep with your word and you cant do it on your own you have to have your support system (best friends). Well i hope this will benefit someone in the long run. peace & Love....