Whats on my mind 6/24/2009

So0o on this glorious hot day i had a lot of down time to just think about a lot. For starters as usual boys!!! haha why do they treat us the way they do right? In my opinion i believe that all the good ones are either gone or dead. My aunts and uncles steady tell me all the time that by the time I'm older i will not get married and even if i do it will be to the wrong person and most likely divorce will be the biggest factor for my generation!! why is that? i guess because now and days boys are seeing that why tie down to 1 and not have them all. It's like us girls don't have any control anymore. we want happiness but we only seek it in him and he does give it to us but for a temporary time. Why do we allow boys to control that we know all the quotes and all the rules etc.. but we still tend to let things ride?! i guess its because we feel like we have know choice which in adults case they all sometimes don't but us girls do... idk its so confusing in this world of sin... but on better news i am finally 17 yay rated R movies haha not a little girl anymore one more year and i will be 18 and a graduated student from high school!!! yess well anyway i have been going to the beach like almost every day and i have completely turned black haha i mean that's not bad but i loved my skin color haha but yeah. and i love my friends they are all still here as usual although girls can get urrrgh toward each other but its okay!! and i have a new job at dsw shoes i love it although there is a theft there! but I'm like in shoe heaven when i work there I'm gladly to help a customer!! but any who school is over finally and cheer is still here haha but i do need to work it its just about that time.... Well this was all i really had on my mind maybe one day i can answer the questions i say and maybe one day hopefully soon i will find a boy that stands out from the rest of them =)

What if we could relive the past?

I was just thinking like what if we could really relive the past. Like if we could do what we do on computers and just hit the back button and go back and erase it and start over! I know my past is what helped me get this far in life but what if the choices i made in my life didnt happen would my life be worst or better. I guess thats why people believe in resurrection, they just know that they may have messed up in this lifetime but god will resurrect us in a world will no more pain nor outcry would even be discovered. Now is that a world that we want? i pretty much wouldnt mind if i didnt have to cry at all thru life but how could i let the steam or pain i have go but then that when no more pain comes in so i guess that goes hand in hand. It seems like to me i rush things so much and dont realize how much time i have at least hypothetically speaking. I always say i want this and want that but i dont never think that im maybe not ready for that or better yet maybe it came i just didnt realize it. I swear i love my family seems like without them i would be an emotional wreck just for no reason! Its so many things in this world that we all cant put our finger on but like we always say in DUE time it will come and i no trust i hate waiting and its crazy because they say when you want something go out and get it but what if we go and get it its not what we need or better yet we wait for something for so long and it wasnt even what we wanted... its so much to be solved at least to me...