mistakes or just the wrong person?

Ok so this has really been bugging me for a long period of time! How is it that everyone that i have ever been with is happily taken and im stuck still in the single pool?! seems like it took them noe time but me on the other hand im still awaiting my prince charming! I mean what do i do that makes me remain single for so long? im thinking should i change but i was getting my hair done today and the lady that does my hair said something so important today that i couldnt let it slip my mind. ive noticed that sense i have changed i havent did nothing but mess up mess up mess up. finally i know the reason because how can i be someone im not obviously im not suppose to be like this because if i was i think i would see things way more clearer then i see now. It is pretty blurry from what i see... when i was the regular antoinette my life was on diamonds and pearls now that i have changed to this little alter ego "nette fierce" or "nette" i havent had any good luck ive had days were they are the best but that next day will be the worst?! i wonder why that happens because im being who i am not. the real me is way far from what i am now. Antoinette enjoys writing, being in love, talking on the phone for hours rather then texting, wearing whatever is comfortable and not trying to impress the next eye, being at home and not worrying about anything, cheering, not having to work for my happiness and ive always said that until i changed. the sad part about this all is that i cant go back i have to continue to move forward, but maybe i can start being me just in an improved mature way... i will only have happiness if i am me and not pretending to be someone else.... although i dont ever pretend to be someone else i just try to change myself into someone that is so0o different and now i see i need to just take myself as i am. have you ever felt like you have been making too many mistakes in life? well maybe god has shown you the message already its not regrets its not silly careless mistakes its just that the way you are or have become maybe isnt a way he wants you. i guess from now on i will do my best to stop becoming someone im not... hope you can do the same.....