Quote of the day!!!

"Difficulties make you a jewel. - Japanese (on adversity)"
So i came across a lot of quotes today that made sense but i thought that this one was very significant to us females =) .... So i was listening to robin thicke and he has this song on his new album called Ms.Harmony and when i was listening to it i was overwhelmed at what he was saying like was he singing to me? Hahah but anyways he was saying how she goes through so many things and so is the world but she is still a flower in the bloom and not only that he notes that she should let go of all the men that did her wrong well hands down i fell in love with this song... Basically in my opinion the more you go through things and life's lesson's the more you will become something rather then nothing! You understand when people say beauty is pain well recognize it ..... Beyonce, Tyra Banks and many more were'nt the charm of the school til they went through rough times.... I believe we all can be at peace with our appearance if we just stop trying to please the next eye and just do it for ourselves i guarantee you will see a difference when you finally say I'm changing for ME! Don't quote me on my word just yet it may not come overnight or right away but i promise you in due time if you ask the best man there is faith and works will most definably prevail that's why i enjoy praying now it took me a while to realize but now i can see why i do because all this long time you try to make changes on your own and it wont work maybe temporarily but not stay... So when the quote says difficulties make you a jewel its simply telling you that nothing you try as if make up or surgery or whatever it wont work unless you go through difficult challenges that life brings to you. Yes they may be hard but god wouldn't give you anything you cant handle !..... Quote is from wiseoldsayings.com

Quote of the day!!! Part 2

"Confession is good for the soul. - Scottish Proverb"
Am i glad i ran across this one!!! Actually tomorrow i am doing basically all of my confessions right in the spic of the morning just to let go of a few detour's in my life. Tomorrow is the last day of summer and august and it has been a very Topsy curvy one for me... Anyways Like my mother always tells me a closed mouth will never get fed.... Since i have heard that i believe that holding back does nothing but cause stress... When you tell that person how you feel or what you have done or whatever is on your mind not only do you feel better but it makes things a whole lot better even if the confession is not a good one... The soul carries so much in it that imagine if you kept everything in i don't think it would be able to function correctly because it would be overwhelmed with different thoughts and feelings about people... In my opinion confession's are the hardest things we have to do in life to a person... Do you know how hard it is to tell someone you like them and wanting to be alone in that situation or maybe even telling a person you miss them but the other feels differently or what about that four letter word LOVE... Fortunately we all come across things like that its life... Our minds wonder so badly that we cant control them at times and we just allow them to drift away... Confession's are like a breathier because once you have confessed to whomever you can breath at ease... Think about the last confession you have done and think about it for a minute and actually realize it wasn't easy and in fact it will never be but the person it should be easiest to is the man above (god) confess your sins and i guarantee you will feel better... although he may know every last thing of what you did he will wait until you have told him that you have done wrong and you have acknowledged it ... I'm know preacher but i just know a little something about the best man in the world!!!! so anyways when the quote says "Confessions is good for the soul" They are trying to tell you stop holding everything in and maybe what you have been longing for will finally come... speak up for yourself and let the world know you are there and not only that your soul will be happy too haha... toddles... Quote is from wiseoldsayings.com

Quote of the day!!! Part 1

Okay so I'm so very sorry for not updating each and every day so the days that i miss i will try to write two each night like tonight because i was reading and two caught my eye!!!
"Clothes may disguise a fool, but his voice will give him away. - unknown"
I personally love this one!!! I happen to see and hear it every single day of my life and it gets pretty darn old after a while!!! This quote can be taken in two different ways such as Someone may have on the most expensive outfit in the world but once you listen to a sentence of what they are saying you will no they didn't get that as easily as they may say they did rather as "hustling" or maybe they "stole" it. The other way is people try so hard to have the "look" but once you listen to there words you understand that the clothes they have on their back don't match up with there inner selves. I find it so crazy that people will spend a pretty penny on a one in a lifetime outfit. I read this poster in my class one time and it said how we will buy a thousand pair of jeans and shirts but nobody will remember that only what you said that reflected something in their life! i believe that indefinably i am not going to lie i love to shop but when i shop i remember who has to wear it so i don't go for the smallest thing to be skin type and try to impress a little boy or whatever nor do i go for the biggest thing i just go for what is comfortable like it or not you didn't pay for it you don't have to look at it and its not effecting anything in your life?!?! I find it funny because we all do this but we will go out and buy a one night only outfit and never wear it again. I recently just had a yard sale and i find it so funny that i sold items that i payed a fortune for but sold them for less then $5.oo. Tell me that is not good, we are in a recession haha i finally am searching through the clearance rack and let me tell you its been very successful.... But anyways when the quote says "clothes may disguise a fool, but his voice will give him away" There are basically saying stop trying to be SOMEONE YOU ARE NOT!!!! God is molding us into what he wants so don't get mad just because you don't have this and cant afford that just be happy that he even gives you the opportunity to have the clothing on your back it doesn't have to have the biggest brand name on it or look like you spent a fortune on it just as long as you are comfortable and you feel as though you look good..... toddles Quote from wiseoldsayings.com

Quote of the day!!!

Sorry it has taken me til Thursday to want to write i have been very beyond busy with work school and this debutante but here goes!!!
"A blind person who sees is better than a seeing person who is blind. - Iranian (on wisdom)"
This quote caught my eye very surprisingly i had to actually read it 3 times to actually think about it. You know how blind people cannot see well just think if they can see clearer then a person who has 20/20 then that is wrong. It seems as though blind people can see more things then we do. Not really "see" but can understand like a relationship for example, a person that is blinded by what another person is doing like cheating...Love can blind you so badly that you will even see clear as day but you just don't want to believe it. A blind person seems to know so much about life and they take feelings in deep consideration because that's all they know. When we wake up each and every morning and look outside and see the shining sun we miss the big picture, we miss signs that are all over, we miss the sounds that are just normal to a regular person but sweet nothings to a blind person. What I'm trying to say is although a blind person is covered and they only see pitch black everyday they see just as much as us if not more. Its like a intuition for them, Did you know that Stevie wonder had/ has a chance at seeing again but he refused to have the surgery. Why on earth would he want to give up on seeing his children or just seeing anything of that matter you ask? Like i said blind people can see way more then we can. We could read a book a million times but never actually get the context clues or the moral of the story but if someone was to read aloud a book say for example "Steve Harvey's book act like a lady think like a man" .Woman, girls have read it religiously but what good does it do if we all cant apply to what he says yeah we "know and feel what he says" but we don't apply to it. We all put on fronts like we are so strong but we all make mistakes nobody is perfect so when the quote says that a blind person that can see is better then a seeing person that is blind they are trying to say that we all need to open our eyes better yet horizons stop belittling ourselves and just live i know we hear that all the time but maybe like a blind person does "see" maybe its time we all need to.... toddles!!!! Quote from www.wiseoldsayings.com

New start?!

So today was a very busy fast day seems like time went from 10 in the morning to 11 o' clock at night?! So i have decided to stop writing any kind of way because i would like more readers and i would like for them to understand what i say so i will try my hardest to be grammatically correct! Anyways in the past few days i have been a busy body! I am an A.K.A. Debutante ! i didn't know it was as much as work as it is but i am made for it and I'm so very ready! From community service to fundraising! I actually can't wait i have already had many different ideas! On both subjects. I have my escort down and pack and he is very supportive thanks!!! I believe it will be better if i just make sure i have some alone time at night and I'm also going to start going to sleep just a bit earlier now so know more "round midnights". As well as to the side comments I'm going to start writing about things that are meaningful to people and things people would love to read about i want to see more profile views =) anyways. I am so tired i work this whole week and the days I'm off I'm still going to be up and at them pretty early just my luck! Anyway my last day at finish line is September 3rd cant believe I'm leaving them but i cant take two jobs, school, school newspaper and this debutante its way to much so I'm just going to keep DSW (designer shoe warehouse). So although i have work, school plus school newspaper and debutante i still am putting school first its my senior year it went by so quick that i cant even believe it Antoinette is almost grown what is the world going to do?! Any who i get to attend the NSU memorial classic it should be very fun I'm going to miss out on the afram fest which in my opinion it has kind of been played out we all know whats going to happen they can have a million police its still going to be chaos and more. I have also came to an decision that i don't need anyone (relationship) wise anymore all through the summer that's all i used to complain about but now i am so busy that where could i have the time? I'm happy for that senior year will be full of surprises as i can see. Also its this great website Mr. Brickhouse has told me about and its called wiseoldsayings.com! i am going to start using that website to write about. I'm going to take a quote (copyrighted) and explain it in teenage words and they wont just be any quote they will be something meaningful that we can all use like a daily bread! On Sundays I'm going to take the word from my pastor that way it will go along with everything i think that's how i can get more people to relate it sounds pretty fun to and cant wait to do it! I think i told enough of my business to the world so your free to look at my old post about my days and what was on my mind but no more of that!!! unless someone leaves a comment saying other wise anyhow its 11:30 and my plans were to go to sleep before midnight so I'm going to call it a night Goodnight my loves! Have a blessed day tomorrow... toddles!

Thank you lord!

So lately i have been working a lot seems like when i work i have a great amount of peace away from my life and the things i have to go through each and every day! I have been lately leaving a lot of people that have been in my life recently go away and brought back people from my past to the present just because they know me better and they know the way i feel and seems like i need them more now then i did back then... I recently made a mistake and i thought i was going to be feeling bad for it but i actually twisted it to a perfect lesson i never jumped back that quickly on something like that and i would love to applaud myself on it but what good will that do. So hmm tonight i had a rush of things come to my mind as im sitting here at alexis house i have feelings still come about i thought it only happened when i was alone but obviously not. I think the only way that i can get this to stop happening is if i start going to sleep early. around midnight is basically a bad time for me to be in a state of mind of loneliness. I realized i stress so0 much and i stress the impossible but i try to make every thing possible. I strive for the best but always end up short?! Over the last past days ihave learned some valuable information such as obviously until my mr.right comes god is him and will always be him even when mr.right happens to appear he has been the man in my life that has always been here and will never leave me! And i realized i dont call for help to much i try to do things on my own but now the big sign is here when i feel like i cant take things anymore i just need to call that one person. When im feeling lonely or abused or hurt call on him and he will definably be there to comfort him. and although if he may not come when i want him to but he will come when he see's i need him most he wont put that much on me that i cant handle so obviously there is definably a reason why i go through what i go through because i can handle it and i allow it to take me over but now Im saying noe and im going to take my life back over.... Sorry for all this personal stuff i just had a big idea and thought i would share it with you all and maybe it will direct someone else in the right path?! My cousin also opened up a door for me. She said that she will never be able to see wealthy until she see's struggle and i was thinking that how do you think half of the people that are wealthy now got there because god put them all through struggle to realize that its not so easy to live good. And im pretty sure the people that got there way to quickly without the struggle go through a struggle non of us could even take on. Im going to think about that every time i go through a struggle! Maybe thats why i go through what i go through just because i cant be happy unless i have been through it all. I struggle like almost every day whether its money happiness or anything else... hmmm i think im going somewhere with this! I remember i used to pray and ask god to please bring me someone special but he still hasnt came and i thank him for that because i dont want him as of now i want to stay on my own two feet and feel independence which is what i have been feeling for a long while. the things i buy are with my own money that i stand and work for. my mother doesnt just give me things anymore i have to work for them and i am glad she does that because it makes me an even better person then i am now. she has many jobs and i pray for her as well to keep going because one day if i have to come in a crossroad the one she passes everyday idk how i would do it?! Tonight has been a great night today has been an overall great day my friend came back in town and i have to pray for him and his world as well... Life.... has just begun.... Night my loves!

Falling short?!

Have you ever felt like what you do is never enough? I finally figured out that working is like a center of peace at least some jobs. It seems like chaos can never leave me. I so understand that maybe god is putting me thru a test but I cant pass it for nothing. I keep running into the same problems and I know what I do wrong but when im approached with it over and over again I steady fail. My time as a child is pretty much ticking I wouldn’t even say im not a child anymore but im under 18 but im 17 so what does that mean? I think this is so real that every girl that doesn’t have a father figure in there life then they will let any male come in there life and do as they please because they have that part missing from them. I guess that’s why I always fall short, my father is not in my life as much as I wish he was so when it comes to boys they are my weakness and I couldn’t even help it if I wanted to because half of it is to late but you noe what I can do just make sure it wont happen again. Im going to consider boys as being drugs, im going to say im addicted ugh! But the reason why I say that is because they can put me in this mood that I cant unlock myself which shouldn’t be happening and im going to have to try to find that key because this isn’t working were they can have control over me. Time to step up and say NOOO?! My family is my backbone, my godson brings me joy he is someone that can unlock that happiness his smile is so peaceful and he means no harm and I will try my hardest to raise him like a young man and to one day treat the girls he brings in his life good. I wish it wasn’t so hard to find mr.right though but I don’t think that im suppose to find him yet maybe I have some more growing and realizing to do before he comes or someone once told me that while im messing with a lot of wrong people he could of came my way and I would of never known but how do you know? Who knows? But I cannot wait for this school year to start I have a lot of upcoming things to do! I am editor of News on my newspaper very big thing! I love that and also im a debutante yay and I will be taking an ap class so pretty much my plate is full and also I will be a part time student and part time employee at dsw I love that place!! And tonight was really fun i didnt think it would be as fun as it was. I guess sometimes you have to stop assuming and just let it flow. One of my customers told me to never assume but its so hard because you feel like you noe the answer for everything but i have actually been proven wrong i'd assume?! but im so tired but not ready to go to sleep im off tommorow and want to sleep but i have to go to this fresh start program at my school so0o i have to wake up early for that ugh!? but anyway i have been having these dreams back to back and im wondering should i believe them or should i just ignore them i mean the person isnt in my life anymore so im not tryna to bring the past up but 2 days in a row kind of creeps me out big time?! now if tonight i have one of him then something has to give dont you think?! but im watching my brother play his game and i just cannot figure out how he can do it for hours and hours he's only 11 ugh but my faithful readers i will hopefully get to write tommorow if it is god's will... toodles!

Dear Mr. Right

I am waiting for you, I was searching for you and thought i had found you years ago but it wasnt you i found myself knocking at the wrong door and when that person did open the door i noticed nobody lived there! at least real true love wasnt present. So as i patiently waited for your arrival to come i started looking for you knocking on every door that came towards me and i have answered them and they seemed to all be wrong. They have all left a mark on my doorway and i had noe say so as to who could of stayed and who left. I believe each and every person that left a mark made me even stronger than before and as i go through each and every trial i see clearer and start to figure out the puzzle of life. Im just really tired of waiting i want to feel the happiness again i want to be able to wake up and just noe that if the world is mad at me at least i have you on my side. My trust is way out the window and my emotions constantly got hurt that if i was to ever love again i would need direction and assistance. My heart died a long time ago when my first try of love was broken. Seems like i jump from door to door just to feel a second or breeze of happiness can i have a feeling of happiness for eternity? You wont even believe what i do often... I have to sit and cry just to feel at ease i constantly ask god why havent you been here yet? Why do i seem to be in a circle and im always the one that ends up short? Maybe its genetics my mother hasnt found that one person neither has my aunt. I always pray that i can be just like my other aunt she has the perfect life consisting of a faithful husband 3 beautiful kids and a beautiful home what more could she ask for thats my dream one day... But mr.right when you do come just know you have a lot of dirt to clean and i may not budge the first couple of times but please be patient as i have been for you because i dont think i could ever trust again.....

what a night?! 8/9/2009

Wow tonight was a night to definely not forget! I find it quite weird that in my generation why cant boys be civilized and happy with the ones they have why go out your way and cause trouble? This is how i put it once your in a relationship and you start to see someone else that may sound better walk better look better it is not always better! The prettiest girl in the world could be the most dumbest stressful and all the above person in the world... Why try to mess up one thing when you noe once you leave the one you like for the one you love the one you love will leave you for the one they like! that is such a true statement i find it hard to believe at times but when you finally have to deal with that situation thats when you can belive a lot that sounded silly at first! I find it funny that i had my all in this one situation but my heart was in another and guess what my all is gone and my heart is hurt. Im so0o done with those situations i guess you'd say lets just hit reality i think in reality my night and shining armor is right in my face and i choose to bling myself for a reason and that was because i wanted more then i needed! i find that odd eh? You only get one chance with people that first impression and when you ruin it you cant help but try again but they wont allow you... boys are drama point blank period when madness can overpower being smart thats when this world is really going thru it! I love being alone sometimes it gives me that assurance that i noe i wont get mad at myself i cant cry over anything or about anything although you get tired of being lonely but its fine sometimes when i lay in my bed i thank god that he allows me to be so strong like i am... I plan to go to church tommorow and ask him to help me out even more and make me an even stronger young lady. As im growing into a women i love that part about life.... Well im getting a little tired so i believe its time to call it a night thanks to all the people that read my blog you give me more of a reason to continue to write... Night my loves!

8/6/09 On my mind?!

So its midnight and its also a storm tonight and it got me thinking a lot. Today seemed like any other day to me. Cheer Family stress the usual its not the fact that im not happy its just that i try to seek my happiness in people instead of seeking it myself!!!! Once again i made another friend a foe ughhhhh can people just be a little caring please. i really dont ask that much of anyone. So i did have a boyfriend for a good maybe 6 and a half days haha it went good at first but when it came to the end thats when it kind of shattered. See i guess the difference between me and a lot of girls is i want attention a lot.... this is only when im in a relationship not when im single of course i would have to do that on my own but im just saying like i enjoy a phone call every night just saying " hi baby how was your day?" even though we had been texting like all day ya no something like that shows you care i mean is that me being a bit clingy? i mean texting is so0o overated i get so tired of it. if you can text me you love me you can text the world you love them to0o! One of my co-workers one day told me that if someone cant call you and tell you things but only text then they dont mean it! reason being is because in a text message you dont see nor no what that person is thinking or saying while typing that message! i find that very clever of him to think that! but you know what i think that we overlook the people that really mean good but show as bad?! I mean its this one person that ive known for forever literally and i cant see him as anything more than a friend but he is always here i question myself sometimes and think could i take him serious though?! idk... but you no the saying you cant have your cake and eat it too.... well i had two people that i was talking to and guess what now i have none hahaa well i guess that transitioned the way it was suppose to oh well... life goes on tommorow is a brand new day i have cheer tryouts tommorow ready or not... then i have to work a few hours later... friday is going to be my sleep in day seriously im debating if i should cut my phone off that whole day just to ignore anything that can make that day a negative one and if not cut it off at least ignore it and keep it on silence and dont text back nor call back i need to regain some things i believe thats why i need that and i think i will actually do it it sounds like a plan!!! But i guess that was all that was on my mind as of now wish me luck tommorow though i have confidence that i will make it so0o we will see!!! toodles