what a night?! 8/9/2009

Wow tonight was a night to definely not forget! I find it quite weird that in my generation why cant boys be civilized and happy with the ones they have why go out your way and cause trouble? This is how i put it once your in a relationship and you start to see someone else that may sound better walk better look better it is not always better! The prettiest girl in the world could be the most dumbest stressful and all the above person in the world... Why try to mess up one thing when you noe once you leave the one you like for the one you love the one you love will leave you for the one they like! that is such a true statement i find it hard to believe at times but when you finally have to deal with that situation thats when you can belive a lot that sounded silly at first! I find it funny that i had my all in this one situation but my heart was in another and guess what my all is gone and my heart is hurt. Im so0o done with those situations i guess you'd say lets just hit reality i think in reality my night and shining armor is right in my face and i choose to bling myself for a reason and that was because i wanted more then i needed! i find that odd eh? You only get one chance with people that first impression and when you ruin it you cant help but try again but they wont allow you... boys are drama point blank period when madness can overpower being smart thats when this world is really going thru it! I love being alone sometimes it gives me that assurance that i noe i wont get mad at myself i cant cry over anything or about anything although you get tired of being lonely but its fine sometimes when i lay in my bed i thank god that he allows me to be so strong like i am... I plan to go to church tommorow and ask him to help me out even more and make me an even stronger young lady. As im growing into a women i love that part about life.... Well im getting a little tired so i believe its time to call it a night thanks to all the people that read my blog you give me more of a reason to continue to write... Night my loves!