8/6/09 On my mind?!

So its midnight and its also a storm tonight and it got me thinking a lot. Today seemed like any other day to me. Cheer Family stress the usual its not the fact that im not happy its just that i try to seek my happiness in people instead of seeking it myself!!!! Once again i made another friend a foe ughhhhh can people just be a little caring please. i really dont ask that much of anyone. So i did have a boyfriend for a good maybe 6 and a half days haha it went good at first but when it came to the end thats when it kind of shattered. See i guess the difference between me and a lot of girls is i want attention a lot.... this is only when im in a relationship not when im single of course i would have to do that on my own but im just saying like i enjoy a phone call every night just saying " hi baby how was your day?" even though we had been texting like all day ya no something like that shows you care i mean is that me being a bit clingy? i mean texting is so0o overated i get so tired of it. if you can text me you love me you can text the world you love them to0o! One of my co-workers one day told me that if someone cant call you and tell you things but only text then they dont mean it! reason being is because in a text message you dont see nor no what that person is thinking or saying while typing that message! i find that very clever of him to think that! but you know what i think that we overlook the people that really mean good but show as bad?! I mean its this one person that ive known for forever literally and i cant see him as anything more than a friend but he is always here i question myself sometimes and think could i take him serious though?! idk... but you no the saying you cant have your cake and eat it too.... well i had two people that i was talking to and guess what now i have none hahaa well i guess that transitioned the way it was suppose to oh well... life goes on tommorow is a brand new day i have cheer tryouts tommorow ready or not... then i have to work a few hours later... friday is going to be my sleep in day seriously im debating if i should cut my phone off that whole day just to ignore anything that can make that day a negative one and if not cut it off at least ignore it and keep it on silence and dont text back nor call back i need to regain some things i believe thats why i need that and i think i will actually do it it sounds like a plan!!! But i guess that was all that was on my mind as of now wish me luck tommorow though i have confidence that i will make it so0o we will see!!! toodles