Dear Mr. Right

I am waiting for you, I was searching for you and thought i had found you years ago but it wasnt you i found myself knocking at the wrong door and when that person did open the door i noticed nobody lived there! at least real true love wasnt present. So as i patiently waited for your arrival to come i started looking for you knocking on every door that came towards me and i have answered them and they seemed to all be wrong. They have all left a mark on my doorway and i had noe say so as to who could of stayed and who left. I believe each and every person that left a mark made me even stronger than before and as i go through each and every trial i see clearer and start to figure out the puzzle of life. Im just really tired of waiting i want to feel the happiness again i want to be able to wake up and just noe that if the world is mad at me at least i have you on my side. My trust is way out the window and my emotions constantly got hurt that if i was to ever love again i would need direction and assistance. My heart died a long time ago when my first try of love was broken. Seems like i jump from door to door just to feel a second or breeze of happiness can i have a feeling of happiness for eternity? You wont even believe what i do often... I have to sit and cry just to feel at ease i constantly ask god why havent you been here yet? Why do i seem to be in a circle and im always the one that ends up short? Maybe its genetics my mother hasnt found that one person neither has my aunt. I always pray that i can be just like my other aunt she has the perfect life consisting of a faithful husband 3 beautiful kids and a beautiful home what more could she ask for thats my dream one day... But mr.right when you do come just know you have a lot of dirt to clean and i may not budge the first couple of times but please be patient as i have been for you because i dont think i could ever trust again.....